He is on his knees.
His palms are held out in sacrifice, crimson drips from between his fingers as the organ he is offering pulses with viability.
His eyes are on me, begging.
I walk a careful circle around him. My boots make an antagonizing clap against the pavement. The organ dances in retaliation.
“Shhh…” He whispers to it.
“No, please let it beat,” I ask.
He does.
I continue to pace around him, biting my lip thoughtfully.
“What do you want in return?”
“I just want you to love me,” his voice is meager, weak, pathetic, beautifully tragic and crazily codependent.
“What is there left to love, once you’ve given the very essence of your being to me?” I point at his heart in his hands, its thump still vibrant with promise.
“What is there for me if I offer you nothing at all? A life of ‘almost’s? A series of disappointments and unmet expectations? I’d cut off my limbs! My tongue! My eyes! It is nothing to carve out my heart, so long as I have your promise it will be beside you always, to sleep to your silence and wake to your charm.”
I stop my routine pace and collapse to a bended knee. “You are crazy to love me,” I remark staring deeper than ever into the brown of his eye, hunting for even a flicker of hesitation but found only delusion and certainty.
“You know what makes me crazier?” He places his cupped hands, still dripping, inside mine. Curiosity is clear in the tilt of my head. “I actually believe that someday you’ll love me too,”
Every messy beat of his heart is like a quick kiss. Every splatter of blood from my palms to the ground, a composed symphony. Every second in between is an eternity of unrequited love.
His smile grows brighter as his face fades paler. A moment of concern sweeps over me, “Are you sure?”
“See, you’ve begun to love me already,”
His body slaps against the concrete like a thousand pairs of boots, echoing inside my head as if we had met in a canyon.
His heart, his love, his sacrifice, his offering.. It lives on in my hands. It is beside me always.
I love him more with each waking sun.
June 4, 2013
Categories: Poetry . Tags: dark, death, desire, hate, life, love, offering, poetry, power, sacrifice, sin, tragedy, unrequited love . Author: copiousveracity . Comments: 8 Comments